#Kunikuzushi name
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Idk, a modern Au Scaramouche being soft. It can be considered a gn reader, because it does not specify any pronouns... although I did it thinking of a reader amab.
Headcanons of Scaramouche and you, I think no pronoun is specified. Mention of hickeys, nothing explicit, Scaramouche is a proud.. (he is a bit silly)
Scaramouche bf! He doesn't understand in the slightest why you always put too much effort into decorating when you do your schoolwork, (half of him understands) what you do for aesthetics but to him, it seems unnecessary. (It's minimalist)
Scaramouche bf! Every time he gets upset (he's not serious) all he wants from you is for you to shower him with affection. He is hungry for affection, touch or words (better both to relieve that hunger)
Scaramouche bf! who always complains and snorts, annoyed because both of them live far away from each other. Although you see each other in classes and everything, he also wants to spend time with you alone, simply in your room, seeing what nonsense you will come up with today or simply a date at a cafe or walking through squares, enjoying the peace.
Scaramouche bf! who is actually called Kunikuzushi, but now to leave that painful past behind he calls himself Scaramouche, although he doesn't want anything to remember about his previous name... it really doesn't bother him in the least if you call him Kuni or kuzushi, because he is quite used to it. That you call him that, it's as if that nickname was simply made for him, so that you could say it through your lips with that stupidly sweet smile for him (ironic, right?)
Scaramouche bf! He definitely takes care of his skin, although he has almost absolutely no imperfections, he follows a skyn care routine, and he would like to guide you in this type of world of face and skin care if you didn't do it before!, but if you already did So you would like both of you to be together, each doing your own skin care routine.
Scaramouche bf! Good memory and he takes pride in it, but when something happens he acts like an idiot who doesn't know anything or doesn't remember it (he likes to bother you)
Scaramouche bf! Totally embarrassed if you go to the gym and one day you suggest that he sit on top of a bar to do chest exercises, and carrying his weight you do quite a few repetitions... (he gets embarrassed although he tries to maintain his defiant and mocking attitude.)
Scaramouche bf! He is surprised and freezes in a few seconds if you were to carry him so easily, he knows that he weighs little but the fact that you carried him without effort... surprises him and, clearly, he doesn't blush a little, he simply beams, telling you to put it down. And if you don't do it, and you carry him calmly like a princess... he will be with his arms crossed... maintaining an expression of annoyance but you can't take it seriously when that light blush becomes more and more noticeable on his cheeks, it's cute even though he's annoying.
Scaramouche bf! that his physical strength is below the average man (just a little) and sometimes he HATES asking you for help carrying things, because he is supposed to be independent and not weak. (In the end you approach him on your own, and you will have to insist on helping him until he finally says yes... but reluctantly, as if he could really carry that heavy box that, according to him, weighs 100kg ... or if you stop insisting, he will get upset anyway because you didn't want to help him.)
Scaramouche bf! who uses concealer to hide the hickeys that were stupidly dark, he doesn't even know how the hell he leaves you... that you leave him in this ridiculous state (He likes it anyway)
Just bland headcanons, sorry this isn't reviewed, just vague ideas. Any mistake... well it will be there
#scaramouche genshin impact#scaramouche headcanons#Scaramouche soft#scaramouche x reader#scaramouche fluff#scaramouche au#Scaramouche au modern#scaramouche x gn reader#scaramouche x you#kunikuzushi#Kunikuzushi name#scaramouche x amab reader#scaramouche
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new year, new you,,,,,,,
ITS SCARAâS BIRTHDAY WHOOOOOOO đ„łđ„ł thank you for being born you have infested my thoughts for the last year and a half like a cockroach and i literally cannot get rid of you no matter what i do <3
#genshin impact#scaramouche#wanderer#kunikuzushi#kabukimono#yea im tagging all his aliases why does bbygrl have to go by so many names :â3#popping the biggest bottles of champagne rn for him#its so wild that he has a birthday now and that heâs playable#like woaahhh wtf i can make him sprint around and do stupid shit??#i can put him in my teapot?? i can make him play windtrace???#my art
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âthanks for the flowers!â
âwhat flowers?â
in which they find out you receive a gift from someone that isn't them.
characters; wanderer, alhaitham, kaveh
; i keep seeing that damn tiktok đ gender neutral reader, fluff, crack,
WANDERER eyes you skeptically, suspicion being evident on his pale features as he scans your expression up and down. has he already caught on to your little prank?
âfirst of all, who in their right mind would court you? and with some sappy flowers as well?â
you return his unamused gaze, finding him very unfunny.
âyou do know that you're dating me, right?â
âunfortunately.â he clicks his tongue, further leaning towards your face, brows still furrowed as if he's trying to decipher something, gazing at you with an unreadable expression that has your resolve crumbling. âis this another one of your antics to get a rise out of me? if so, it's not working.â
his lips break out into a grin upon watching your eyes widen. but your shock doesn't last longâhim immediately seeing through your silly scheme isn't an unexpected outcome, funnily enough.
âyou're too serious sometimes.â you pout at him whilst he scoffs, âjust humor me. what would you actually do if i managed to receive flowers from another?â
âit's simpleâyou can't.â comes his swift and confident reply, offending you as you stare at him incredulously, weighing the implication of his words.
âyou speak of me like i'm the most unattractive person in teyvatâwhat do you mean i can't?â
âyou're an idiot. would i have really chosen you if you were unattractive in any way?â he crosses his arms before facing you completely, indigo hues staring directly into yours.
âi already eliminated all those who dare steal you from me.â
...?
you freeze on the spot, processing what you've just heard.
â...excuse me?â
ââjust kidding. i'm no longer that type of person, hah.â he huffs out a derisive laugh, yet his humorous farce does not meet his eyes.
not finding any comfort in his supposed testament of it only being a joke, you opt to stare at him confusingly in return. weirdo.
ALHAITHAM, much like the wanderer, catches on to the prank immediately. whether it's intuition, scarily precise deduction or just the way you generally act weird when it comes to lying to his faceâhe still figured you out in the end like it's nothing.
but unlike the wanderer, he decides to humor you and play along. what a good boyfriend.
â...you mean you didn't give me the flowers?â you flutter your lashes at him, a horrible and terribly inefficient way to convince him that the whole thing with the flowers is actually real. alhaitham suddenly has the rare urge to laugh. since when did you act like this?
alhaitham shifts in his seat. âno. who do you think it's from?â
âhm.â you hum thoughtfully, bringing a finger to your chin as if in deep thought. the scribe briefly wonders how far you're willing to take this joke. but he digressesâthe chances of him actually getting mad at you are akin to that of kaveh finally shutting upâ
âmaybe kaveh? he grew an interest in flowers recently, so i've heard. maybe he sent some as like a sign of friendship or something along those lines...there's no way it means something else, riiiiiight?â
alhaitham pauses his train of thought.
speak of the devil.
momentarily doubting his conclusion that you're just pulling a prank, he quietly glowers at you as if silently telling you to take back your words.
âwhat about him?â
you immediately cower upon the drop in his toneâraising your arms in defense when alhaitham moves to stalk closer to you. âi was joking! i didn't get any flowers from anyone and last time i conversed with kaveh was when iââ
âlet's go.â he grabs the back of your collar and drags you along, a newfound heavy weight in his footsteps as an indescribable and uncomfortable feeling creeps up on his neck.
âi really was just joking, 'haitham! i was bored and i wanted to annoy you for a bit! i swear!â
even if it wasn't true, the thought of kaveh gifting you flowers without his knowledgeâ
alhaitham's expression subconsciously turns sour. quite unlucky that you couldn't witness the extremely scarce sight of jealousy on your boyfriend as you are comically dragged against your will behind him.
âthe nearest flower shop is just around the corner. tell me if anything piques your interest.â he says in way that has no room for argument. he is getting you flowers now.
KAVEH falls for it, obviously. not exactly the sharpest tool in the shed outside his designated profession, you see.
âi don't remember buying any flowers...â he mutters to himself, the gears in his head turning. it's almost laughable when he finally pieces your words together, a look of disbelief painfully present on his faxe but by some miracle, you resisted the urge to burst out in giggles right then and there. âwait...i didn't send any!â
âis that so...then who would send me flowers other than you?â you edge him on, instigating at its finest, much poking a sleeping bear with a stick while you circle it tauntingly.
an actual enraged kaveh is something you've never seen before, just some tantrums and endless ranting about some clients and his roommate. you've always wanted to see itâjust not directed at you, hopefully.
âthat's...ah, people already know you're dating me though, so it can't be someone hitting on you. maybe it's just from a relative orââ
âreally?â you tilt your head, feigning a bit of confusion. âthen i suppose i should keep these red roses then. i'll ask tighnari how to keep them alive, i guess.â
âw-wait, waitâcould you repeat that?â
âhm?â you face him, âi'll ask tighnari?â
âno, the one before that.â
â...i'll keep the red roses?â you had to hold yourself back from grinning ear to ear when his eyes widen.
it's not unexpected that someone versed in the beauty of art would recognize one of the most common flower's meaning. quite the handy trivia.
he immediately stands up, grabbing your hand in tow as you yelp in surprise at his abruptness.
âkaveh?!â
âthose flowers mean love! like, actual romantic love! i'll burn it for you right now! where'd you put it!?â the intensity of his ruby gaze sends shudders down your spine.
âit's not like i reciprocate itââ
âstill, no one other than me should be sending those...!â kaveh tightens his grip on your hands, âi don't like the idea of someone hitting on you. i can't let anyone attempt to take you away from me...â
you blink. âkaveh...â
ââthat's why show it to me now! or i'll bite you!â
âokay, okay! jeez...â
now...how are you going to break the news to him that it was actually yellow roses, and most definitely not from an admirer?
the biggest hater of my work is myself. wtf am i writing bruh àŒàș¶â âżâ àŒàș¶
#can i just announce thag i only found out today that i am moots with LOCK????#literally screamed when i saw her name in my followers list#literally my inspiration for writingđ one day ill write just like her i promise#for now enjoy my terrible vocabulary#genshin impact x reader#genshin drabbles#genshin impact headcanons#genshin impact imagines#genshin x reader#wanderer x reader#alhaitham x reader#kaveh x reader#kunikuzushi x reader#scaramouche x reader#harâfiction
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crashed head first into the sethos/scara bandwagon
#literally cannot stop thinking about them#matt rambles#my art#drawing#sketch#genshin impact#havenât drawn that in a while#sethos#sethos gi#scaramouche#wanderer#kunikuzushi#can he stop having so many names#sethoscara#scarasethos#scarathos#i think sethoscara is the agreed upon ship name
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types of families.
#genshin impact#ningguang#beidou#beiguang#kaedehara kazuha#raiden shogun#yae miko#eimiko#scaramouche#kunikuzushi#and whatever other names wanderer has
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Blueberry kisses đ«
#âĄ#artist on tumblr#Fanart#Genshin impact#ćç„#Chiscara#Scarachilde#Childe#Tartaglia#Ajax#Scaramouche#Kunikuzushi#Wanderer#& other fucking name this bitch have#Anyway i just wanted to draw something sweet of them#cause i am still in pain over the fact that Childe doesn't know how Scara is anymore#I AM COPING
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there are five times when scaramouche tried to say âi love youâ, but failed.
the first time he tried to do so, you were dozing off on his shoulder during a train ride home. it was just a silent ride for the two of you, but the silence was comfortable as you slept peacefully.
it was strange. it was strange how scaramouche could just feel himself saying it right now. how he could feel that those three words could just roll out of his tongue so smoothly.
and so it did. he lets out a small "i love you".
but of course, since you were asleep, you didnât really hear him properly. but you did wake up to the sound of his voice. âhmm?â you hummed, rubbing your eyes. scaramouche smiles and says, "nothing. i said weâre almost near our stop.â
in the right time, maybe.
the second time was when you two were at his place for a movie night. the television was pretty loud, but who said scaramouche was actually watching the movie that was playing? his eyes drifted toward you most of the time. he wasnât watching the movieâhe was watching you enjoy the movie.
as if it were the simplest thing to do, he found himself saying it again. âi love youâ he says.
that was the second time, and heâs well aware that it was unheard. but he doesnât mind, since deep inside, thatâs enough for him.
in the right time, maybe.
the third time scaramouche tried to tell you that he loved you, his heart almost felt like it was about to jump out of his chest.
chilly air from the night flew past the both of you as you randomly walked together, despite it being late. you had your music playing and were casually singing along while he followed right after.
scaramouche had no idea why his hands felt all clammy or why he could feel himself blushing. you were just singing; it was no big dealâso why? why is he reacting like this?
the sudden burst of feelings is there. so while you were busy singing along, he couldnât help but utter, âi love youâ.
third and still unheard, but scaramouche could never feel any better than being with you right now.
in the right time, maybe.
scaramouche really wonders why feelings are so difficult to comprehend sometimes. he can understand othersâ feelings, yes, but what about his? why canât he understand his own feelings? it was rare for him to open up, and when he did, it was quite relieving.
but how can he exactly open up when his issues are related to the person he only opens up to?
scaramouche looks at your sleeping figure again; the book you were studying is long forgotten.Â
he loves it. he loves how you look so beautiful when you sleep, yet youâre so unaware of it. he loves how you can just tell him literally anything because you feel comfortable in his presence.
scaramouche cannot understand the concept of feelings, especially when it comes to love, but he knows.
âi love you,â he says, pushing your hair aside to see you more properly.
fourth. still unheard, but his heart could not be any fuller.
in the right time, maybe.
it is still a wonder that scaramouche did not meet you any sooner. he canât imagine his life without you in it. ever since you two met, you have played a crucial role in his life as a whole. he has so many things to say, yet he canât find the right words to express himself.
scaramouche knows he loves you; that fact dawned on him back then. it was no surprise, really. some could tell what his heart contained by how he looked at you.Â
he has no idea what made you so lovable to him. he just canât help itâin his eyes, thereâs no one else he could think of falling for except for you. just as you were being too busy rambling to scaramouche, once again he just couldnât help but utter an âi love youâ.
fifth. in the right time, maybe he can finally say those three words to you out loud.
#( rambles )#astronetwrk#favoniuslibrary#genshin impact#genshin x reader#genshin impact x reader#genshin imagines#scaramouche x reader#wanderer x reader#kunikuzushi x reader#scara x reader#scaramouche#wanderer#kunikuzushi#so many names damn#TBH I KINDA LIKE THIS ONE#hes so sillyyyy idk why i wrote this
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in light of the latest update
hoyoverse just confirmed every artists' hc that hes just DROWNING in his dumb floofy fatui coat
#scaramouche#fatui#fatui harbingers#genshin impact#genshin scaramouche#scarameow#kunikuzushi#wanderer#genshin wanderer#i literally cannot tag all his canonical names#hes so LITTLE#i want to squeeze hium until he pops
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babygirl, steve, taylorswift, boggart, husband, johncena, onion, scaracoochie, mybeloved-
#and the award of having the most names isâŠ#steve!!#jk itâs kabukimono kunikuzushi scaramouche the balladeer shouki no kami everlasting lord of arcane wisdom wanderer babygirl#genshin impact#scaramouche#wanderer#kunikuzushi#memes
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He stayed in the shrine with Miko after the second betrayal
#genshin impact#scaramouche#wanderer#kunikuzushi#man why do you have so many names for me to tag *rolls eyes*#anyways i just felt like sharing this lil idea that i am struggling to write and/or draw but love dearly#because obviously i do i've had this hc of him looking up to miko despite his snarky voiceline about her since forever#so yeah that's it that's the au he's just this pretty little helper of the guji yae who people sometimes see and spread rumors about#*cough* definitely not a setup for some kzscr fic at all *cough*
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i tri to draw baby scara, whee
#scara#wanderer#genshin fanart#genshin impact#genshin#genshin impact fanart#scaramouche#genshin scara#wanderer genshin#kabukimono#kunikuzushi#they say a beloved child has many names and oh boi does this boi have names
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traveler: "please stop doing bad things" BLEHHH :p i am NOT doing that u can't make me!!!!!!! :P
#genshin impact fanart#genshin impact#wanderer#scaramouche#kunikuzushi#i don't know what name to give him#i want to name him scarafaggio
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SPECIFIC LOVE LANG FT. SCARAMOUCHE AND THOMA mlist . tags: @ainnofinway
SCARAMOUCHE: helping his partner with their homework.
you and scaramouche, your boyfriend, were in the library seated near the sci-fi section in the archives. it's his auntie's library.
nahida was a very sweet lady and allowed you to even eat in her library. god bless her.
the purple haired male had a very much different work ethic than you do
he was straightforward to the point, his side of the table had stacks upon stacks of books. he always kept his gpa higher than a 3. you, on the other hand, had a good gpa but you struggle in certain topics that scaramouche exceeds at.
you were stuck on this question for like hours while scaramouche seemed to speed through the questions with no problem.
"psss, scaramouche," you whispered, poking his shoulder. but no prevail since scaramouche was surrounded by books piled on books. should you try to knock down his book wall right now? nah, making too loud noises for auntie nahida would hurt you.
hearing his chair being adjusted as scaramouche plucked out the buds out of his ears, music softly playing out of device. "yes?"
"can you please help me on number 21 on assignment 60 from mr. cyrus?"
without missing a beat, he replied back, "ok." as he broke down his walls of books, the physical wall between you two disappeared, grabbing an extra paper. "so, for this equation, you have to use the quadratic formula, x equals to negative b plus or minus square root of b squared subtract 4ac divided by 2a." glancing back to you, he noticed that you're spacing out. "hey."
snapping his fingers, your eyes jolt back awake. he was leaning on one of his hands while you groggily wake up from your day dream. he asked, "are you listening?"
frantically trying to separate reality and dreams from each other, you blurted, "um... yep!" despite the both of you knowing that you were lying, scaramouche knew how to get back at you.
"repeat back what i just said."
ok, mr. cyrus.... math equation. formulas? something with quadratics and the moment scaramouche's soothing voice started to say "x", you were in snoozing land. again, without thinking it through, you replied quickly with "a math equation!"
he chuckled, either at you or at himself, "okay, if you pay attention this time, i'll buy you boba."
he said the magic word, "boba." as if your mind activated your thinking gears, getting free boba plus scaramouche paying equals to boba date with scaramouche. "yes, sir! anything you want me to heed your orders, sir." you joked as scaramouche rolled his eyes.
"alright, solider, it's time to listen."
"yes sir!"
THOMA: making your partner their favorite meal.
it was a long day after you and your boyfriend had finished your finals
but history with ms xianyun was terrible not to mention your partners for the class sucked just as equally
itto kept being off task and xiangling was occupied writing other things
and xianyun grades brutally
thoma opened the door of your shared apartment as you were complaining about your recent final in ms xianyun's class.âim so glad that she curves her tests. if she didnât, iâd be over.â walking to the couch, immediately, you slumped into it, digging your face into the pillow.
thoma patted your legs, in which you moved them aside and making room for your boyfriend, sitting upright. thoma glanced at you, noticing your sour mood and knowing you well enough to know you need the meal to make you feel better. "thomaa." dragging out the syllables of his name. "it's so joever for me."
he tried to comfort you, "if you email ms xianyun about the group, i think it would just decrease their grades."
"you're right...." you looked at his face as it's making the "aren't i always." "okay, thoma."
he chuckled, âwould it make you feel better if i made [fav food]?â your eyes lit up in an instant, following thoma into the kitchen
#astronetwrk#scaramouche x reader#thoma x reader#scaramouche x you#scaramouche imagines#scara#scaramouche#scara x reader#gi wanderer#wanderer x you#genshin wanderer#wanderer x reader#wanderer#wanderer genshin#kunikuzushi#genshin scara#thoma x gender neutral reader#thoma x you#thoma x y/n#thoma x name#genshin impact#genshin impact x reader#gi x reader#gi scaramouche x reader#gi scaramouche#gi thoma x reader#genshin impact characters x reader#character x reader#x reader#gi character x reader
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I just.. I love them. Their dynamic could probably kill someone but I love them
#chaeya#chiscara#kaeya x scaramouche#kaeya x childe x scaramouche#scaramouche#wanderer genshin#scara#kunikuzushi#Childe#ajax#childe tartaglia ajax#Tartaglia#Kaeya#kaeya alberich#tartaglia x kaeya#ajax x kaeya#childe x kaeya#childe x scaramouche#tartaglia x Scaramouche#sketchbook art#genshin impact#i dont know the ship names sob#I MADE THIS BEFORE SETHOS RELEASED OTHERWISE HEâD BE HERE TOO I LOVE SETHOS#SunForsaken art tag
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How i think my Genshin team first impressions to Faruzan
Shes so funny I love her
Im trying out the like "normal" layout instead of my usualy fairytale book one, save i say i prefer the book layout more HAHDJSJSA
#faruzan#zhongli#venti#wanderer#scaramouche#kunikuzushi#HOW MANY NAMES DOES THIS GUY HAVE UGH#genshin impact#artist on tumblr
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gently wipe the sorrow off my life, i dream scaramouche x gn!reader
summary: "you didnât know what happened, why it happened and that was breaking your heart, cutting it open, leaving burning pain in your chest, where once flowers of love bloomed." you're surprised and completely heartbroken when your lover, kunikuzushi, suddenly disappears without a trace. you think it's the end of the world, with your heart open and bleeding but soon you discover, that there is still happiness waiting for you.
tags: based on the prompt "thereâll be happiness after you but there was happiness because of you", scara's real name used, modern au (from highschool to college), scara basically pulls an irminsul but why? blame dottore angst/bittersweet, [name] is very much going through it </3 title name taken from the honkai star rail song "if i can stop one heart from breaking". not proofread
notes: hi. i come back with angst! written for @thexianzhoujade's personal memoires event and truthfully i kinda hate this fic HAJAHS but this is fine i am not fine blah blah blah yippee. i forgot how to write scara so sorry if this fic is kinda ooc but yeahhh have fun enjoy !! <3 as if anyone is going to enjoy angst LMAO
âCome on, itâs just one photo and besides, we barely have pictures of usâŠâ
â...just one, fine. Get in here.â
A part of you wished you had taken more pictures with him. Pictures from dates in the blooming parks, from hangouts with your friends after school, from spending time together at his place, something to fill up the empty photo album you found hidden in your room. You filled only a few pages, with a few pictures of you and Kunikuzushi, of you taken by your friends, of your family during holidays, pictures of you and your friends, his friends, a picture of him you took when he didnât seeâ the one you considered putting in your wallet, laughing how youâd look like a spouse missing their husband.Â
(You counted exactly six photos of him in your album, compared to the twenty or so with others. Barely a quarter, not even a half, barely a page and a half of the album.)
You moved your fingers over one of them, the one you took after graduationâ laughing with your friends, posing at the camera, tightly holding his hand, and tugging him closer, and wondered.
Did it have to end like this? If you only knew what was happening, would you somehow fix it in time?
Things were⊠nice, before. Being with him was nice, even if his personality sometimes made you tug at your hair in annoyance. But you found a common language and spoke in it till the very end, sharing your joy and sadness, annoyance and anger, silent tears and gentle fluttering in your chests.Â
When you first met Kunikuzushi in school, you had your opinions about himâ he wasnât the nicest, wasnât talking with many other students, and seemingly valued his time alone more than with someone. You understood it, some people simply werenât the social butterflies but it became a problem when, by some unlucky charm (at least, you thought it was unlucky then), you ended up together to work on a project. You didnât know him and your teacher decided to pair you by herself, saying how she wanted her students to interact more with each other. It seemed like a terrible idea at first.
(You rolled your eyes, giving a look to your friend. You really didnât entertain this ideaâ to do a big project with someone other than your friend? You dealt with enough shitty groupmates leaving you on read or delivered in your life, and that was for small projects! What if you got someone as shitty as them? You shuddered at the thought alone.)
But, oh, how wrong you were. You didnât expect to befriend that guy, and yet a few months in, Kunikuzushi became your best friend, and a year laterâ your lover.Â
You remembered that love confession like yesterday; a little awkward, he jumbled over his words and you said something stupid in return, laughing awkwardly at yourself and almost getting up from that bench and marching back home. It was late, the bench in the park illuminated by the streetlight. A part of you was sure he planned for the confession to look different, yet whatever his ideal plan was, you wouldnât exchange what you got for it.Â
He walked you back home, you remembered, holding your hand.
To say you were happy was an understatement. Something bloomed in your chest with every day spent together with him, the little affections between you warming your heart and cheeks, and every morning seemed⊠a little brighter. It wasnât wake up, get dressed, go to school, spend majority of your day studying, sleep, anymore.
Wake up, reply to Kunikuzushiâs late night message he sent. Get dressed and donât forget about that chain necklace with a pendant he gave you for your birthday (you were matching, of course you were matching). Go to school and spend the day with your friends, with Kunikuzushi, with his friends (although you werenât sure if that ginger guy was really his friend, butâŠ). Spend the rest of your day studying, texting, and sometimes hanging out if you had free time (which turned into weekly hangouts with all your friends and⊠sometimes, more than once a week, just you and Kunikuzushi). Text him goodnight and smile at his, although short, reply back. Sleep.Â
You hoped it would stay like this⊠for longer. For as long as possible, just living in this bliss, being happy and not alone, with people you loved and who loved you back, some even more than others.
(Selfishly, you wanted that to last forever. Forever the high school student with no worries other than passing exams and doing your homework on time. Forever with your friends, spending weekends with them, having fun and not caring about anything else. Was it selfish to want to be happy forever?)
Kunikuzushi was here with you for all your problems, even if, truthfully, he wasnât the best at solving them, and neither he was good at words. But he was still here, offering you support and letting you talk about what annoyed you, what made you sad and sometimes, he still would try to comfort you, loudly agreeing with your complaints, (lovingly) threatening to beat someone up if they were an asshole to you, telling you to not worry. It wasnât the end yet.Â
His presence alone helped you manage through harder daysâ it was better to be with someone after all, rather than spend your days wallowing in sadness alone, with only the walls willing to listen.Â
(You offered him help, too. Quietly sitting and listening to his rants about his mother, squeezing his hand and tugging him closer to youâ or simply being next to him, when touch was something unwanted.)
When graduation came, in bittersweet tears you promised your friends (and Kunikuzushi, of course) to still be in touch with them, and never leave them alone just because you werenât students from the same class anymore. That didnât change anything, no.
The summer vacation you spent mostly with your friends, hanging out and enjoying the warm, summer weather. So many trips, so many walks with Kunikuzushi and datesâ oh, that picnic you two went on one day⊠it started raining at one point (the weather reports lied to you, it seemed) and you only had a blanket to cover yourself from the rain. How funny it was, how much you wished you could get the chance to do it again, with himâ
You sighed, closing the album. Sometime before the summerâs end, right before the start of college, you noticed⊠changes in Kunikuzushiâs behavior. He still was your lover, caring about you in his own ways, he still was the man you loved, but something seemed to always bug him. Something seemed to sit on his shoulders, heavy. You always asked him if he was okay because yes, yes, you noticed his worse mood, noticed all the little things he tried to hide and you were worried, really worried, andâ
And yet, you never got a proper answer. Always to not worry, that nothing was wrong, and you were tired of that, maybe if you, at least this once, pressed him for answers, during that summer night you called a dateâ
Maybe you would know why he suddenly disappeared without a trace.
The many messages you sent, the many unanswered callsâ you asked your friends around, his friends, and were greeted with radio silence in answer. You didnât know what happened, why it happened and that was breaking your heart, cutting it open, leaving burning pain in your chest, where once flowers of love bloomed.
(These flowers would never truly burn, you feared. Some would still leave, polluting your heart and making it harder to breathe.)
What was once beautiful turned into a burden, far too heavy to carry alone. There was so much stress on your plateâ because what if something happened to him? What if someone did something to him, what if there was something you could do to change it? Why were you so distracted throughout the day? Why was it hard to get up in the morning, why the only thing you wanted to do was to wait at your phone, with hopes of seeing at least a single message from him? Where went your motivation to study, to do well in college as you promised yourself?
Where was he? What happened? Could you change it?
Were you at fault?
(No, of course you werenât. You did everything in your power, but it just wasnât enough. None of this was your fault.)
Were you alone in it?
âŠno, you werenât. It felt like you were, especially at first; with new people around you, your friends offering you support but ultimately being busy, you felt alone. Terribly so, loneliness gnawing at your soul all the time, leaving the icy cold feeling in its wake.Â
But life forced you to get up from that pit, whether you wanted that or not. You couldnât fail your major, not when you worked so hard to get into it in the first place. And neither you wanted to completely cut off your friends, so you started replying to their texts more. Youâve met new people, too, and made new friendships.
Things were getting back on track after, you thought that they wouldnât. You pulled yourself up with your own strength, with your friends cheering for you from the distance, their cheers putting a smile on your face.Â
(Younger you thought that if you ever were to break up with Kunikuzushi, the world would simply⊠end. You ignored that thought creeping into your mind, waved it away, pushed it deep at the bottom of your mind. It wouldnât happen.)
Now, as you looked at the pictures, you still felt a sharp pang in your chest. You missed him, yes, and you still thought about the days you spent together with him, but they no longer brought you back into that darkness you once experienced.
They were a bittersweet memory now. Ones, you would cherish till the end, gently putting them on the shelf with new, happy memories.Â
You hummed to yourself in thought, tapping at the cover of the album with your nail. Maybe instead of pondering how you should take more photos of the past, maybe you should take more of the future? Fill the album up with new photos of yourself, your friends, random things that you found pretty and worth remembering.Â
Your phone threw you out of the thinking, the loud noise of the ringtone filling up the room. Right, you were supposed to meet up with your friends in an hour and here you were, going through your old stuff and procrastinating the shower.Â
You put the album away and picked up your phone. A smile tugged at your lips hearing the overjoyed voice of your friend, telling you how excited they are to meet with you again (your last hangout was two weeks ago!) and that they already left.
You looked back at the album.
With today, youâd start filling it up with new memories of your happiness.
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